Dear Universe

Oh God, let me be happy in my own way
Let me prove, I am not that insane
We are not insane...
Why do people always over generalised?

Oh God, let me be happy even they don't keep me company
Let me prove, we are all the same
The faith that makes different
But it doesn't mean that we can't be friend

Oh God, let me wish for me, myself
Give me all the good
Give me strong
Give me strong
Give me strong

Let me through all this
Let me survive from this
Let me happy in my own way
Let me happy in my own way
Let me happy in my own way
And let them know your merci

The Old Days

I look around my space, thinking why I could be here. Well, it seems like I don't have a way to escape, when you look at the mirror and ask who you really are. And I might realize that I've already missed the old day. Old days.
Something then strengthen me, from the people who always underestimate me. I know, they just don't know who I am. They just make me weak at first as I'm a sensitive-typical person. However, they make me stronger. However, they help me though.
I feel lonely in the crowded places. It's like you have a boyfriend but you don't feel like you have him. I feel here, I don't find anyone know me that well. I miss. I'm missing people who always understand me, keep me struggle for things I almost giving it up. Here, I don't find those people.
I miss the old days, where people call me and share a thing with me. Everyone become so humble, they were there at that time and together. There was an ego, but a bit. Here now, ego is the main strategy to win. Now, the only thing I do is to wait until the game is ended and move to the other new game and I will be a winner
Someday...

The Matter of Time

I'm on holiday!! And well finally my final exam of second semester has done on last 27 June and at that date also was the day where I should pick him at the airport!!!! Akkkkkk finally I can meet again ha ha ha *ignore. He never had a holiday actually, but he forced himself to go home and as can as possible, he should be home at the first day of ramadhan. And today, is the day where people should enjoy their first fasting. Let me throwback at two days ago...

Two days ago were a really really short day for me. I was through the whole day with him. At the night, 27 June where I've picked him and enjoyed until midnight to just share a thing and eat. Then, in the morning I've left my dorm to accompany him went around looked for things until afternoon, then we went to our own hometown. I went to my house, he went to his own house.

It was a short day, however actually we've spent so many times together. There were places I wanted to go with him, until it weren't accomplished because of the matter of time. I'm sure, LDR actors are feeling the same with me. Many times, places we've dreamed to go with him, unfortunately it can't be fulfilled easily. If only I could say, may I turn to the days back to the time where I and him in the same city? Then we can never think hard to decide when we should met :')

However, I'm still enjoying my holiday although it's not without him, but I'm with my family now. I can laugh loudly here, and it seems like an eternal happiness where we can laugh together, laugh a thing that actually it wasn't important, but we've shared a happiness. The happiness that we've never fould out there. We only can see here.

I also realized after I live alone to finish my study. How they are really important to me. I'm not a kind of person who can be easily homesick, miss them and really wanna go home. I actually can live here alone, can be independently doing everything alone also. I'm not afraid, if there I'm not with my dad or mother, then I couldn't catch a thing.

I have about two months of holiday and it's the time to run my mission. I have sooo many mission that I believe it can make my long holiday become not monotone. So, my holiday will not be monotone :D