I'm Not Restless

 It's like punching me to the max when I've got such different recommendations and arguments, even judgments. However, I'm gonna always stick to my plan. Even I might pass that if I lower the standard.

I don't know what happens to me. I don't know about me. Why do I just too optimistic? Am I blinded? Do I really believe in fortune? Since I know, I can make my own fortune by doing good things to people around us.

I love it though I know it's really hard. People have the different perspective, and it makes me confuse. Is that what I've chosen is right? I know I'm too ambitious. I am. But I didn't consider other things. I'm just consistent with no reason. I just love it.

But still, I'm not gonna restless. I choose this and only this. Period.

Too high? I know. But we'd better try than we give up before the match. There nothing wrong with trying. What else we do on this earth if not trying? And if we failed, at least we've tried and our question is answered.

Am I Too Confident?

It's not that I'm overconfident to choose that, but..it's kinda hard to say. Perhaps, I'm just too in love with that thing until I can't opt for another thing. Or am I just too consistent? I just don't care what others choose and what the crowd is saying.

I realized that it might be really difficult. Perhaps, they think I dream too high. Anyway, I just wanna challenge myself. I know it's not easy, but I'll never know if I never try. I'm actually afraid. I know there might be the easier way, but I choose the harder. How crazy it sounds? However, I don't know, I just believe that the fortune will come to me.

I might be dreaming about the things that might be too hard to reach, and you probably think that. But I believe in myself even there are bad talks surround me. I convinced myself cause my friend also said that "you can't be successful if you don't believe in yourself. Success starts with our confidence".

I might stick with the early decision that's not strong enough. I'm consistent. I also believe, success also starts from a thousand failure. So, that's okay. If it fails, I will try again.

I hear every judgment, every advice, which not sometimes makes me think again. Can I? Can I get that? Or will I be a loser?

I realized it's really 'high-level' and I'm clearly none. I might be just too ambitious. Or too optimistic. Honestly, I'm prepared for the possible things that might happen.

I know I may fail. Or everybody knew it that I will fail. But, at least, if I fly the hopes higher, it will fall not too down low.

Quote of The Day

"Parisian style is an attitude, a state of mind. Between rocker and ho-hum bourgeois..." 

 - Ines de la Fressange on Parisian Chic.

Teenage Years

I'm gonna say yes that's what happens to me every day, and you, isn't? Yeah, too boring, I know. And we need to zoom in this words: SPENDING TOO MUCH TIME ON THE INTERNET. I even I don't feel like opening the book for tomorrow's lesson. Or, I don't even wanna study even if there'll be a quiz tomorrow. I sometimes also do something not useful cause I hate my routine. I'm dealing with the same things, having the same boring routine.

I need to refresh my brain. I'm kinda tired, you know? Parents also seem doesn't support me, but I know it's not the thing, it's for the best of me. I mean, they do that for me.

And I feel like, my life isn't perfect. At. All. It's nothing. However, nothing is perfect anyway.

Teenage years aren't like what we expected, like too much joyful or whatever. But in teenage years, we can shape ourselves to be what we really want in the future. Well, if only you do good in teenage years.

Actually, there are so much more things. Our teenage years is not just that. It's us who aren't grateful enough for our life.

Of course in life we have problems, but God has created it based on our capability. So, it's indeed that we can solve it. We can make a way out. Just try to think clearly. Do some effort. You must try! Bear in mind that you can! You can! You can!

Most importantly, don't just talk, but do walk :)

F.U.T.U.R.E.

Have you ever question yourself what will you be in the future? Have you ever worried about it? Well, today is my turn. I mean, I'm worried now. I am now a Senior High and I don't know what to do after this. Still blank. I know, Senior High time is the worst version of me (I hope it won't worsen in the future, so I dare say, this is the worst of me).

We will age, every year our age is plus one. It's not a choice, it just happens that way. Everybody will. But, being grown up is a choice. Not everyone will. I know I'm still really young and there will be a lot of things ahead of my life. I realized that I can't be such a childish no more, even if I'm still young. I still have to think about my future: what will I be in the future?

Life is not just live and die. There are so much more than that, you know right? Even if I'm still almost-17-years-old, I think a thought about future is really necessary. We can't be just having fun all day! If we do that, then we will forget to catch the future. Well, at least I'm thinking 'what will I be in the future' rather than not think about it at all.

At least, I don't waste my time, living in the present without thinking of the future.

I hope we can fight for the future!