Monday, July 8, 2013

Just Woke Up

It's been a long time, since i have graduated. Haha. It has been at about two months i think. Two months begin a long months because some boring activities, boring behaviours, and boring news. Now, i'm not really sure who i am. I mean, my status. Maybe now i can called an unemployed cause i haven't found any University would recieve me. Yes. Been through SNMPTN and been disappointed on last May, exactly after the school graduation. I had get course about 1 more month for preparing the SBMPTN test on June 18-19th. Because i choosed social and i've been educated by science about two years, i thought, i need to took a course. And been waiting the announcement about a month too, and it gets the same result as before. Today, (8 July 13), is the SBMPTN Announcement. So many students are accepted, and much more who isn't accepted, i was including on the second statement :) So much make me down, and many people around me also feel the same like me then i ran here instead of share my sadness to the persons who are feeling sadness too now. I don't know what will happen after this. Maybe i wasn't trying too much, i was just dreaming about it without trying hard. And about wishing to Allah, it just seemed like i never did. I've just done pretty less. And i closed my twitter to keep off their celebrating on earth and make me more to feeling sadness..
You know i'm really missing my SHS, the air. This life is pretty hard until i couldn't know, how's my future? I live for my future, but my past wasn't really build enough. I regret :) I miss my SHS, the classroom, the classmates, schoolmates, the lessons, hmm it has an easy life. And i know i'm not really ready to face the day after this. I just did another way to reach my future, to get at least a University or the same degree.
Maybe, i must do more than i've done and i hope it's maximal. There's only one thing in my mind, it's just about my parents, who beg me and trust me, i just don't wanna make them disappointed. But those had already make them disappointed. Don't let the third challenge fail again. It just for them, not the other persons.
I've been woke up on those two news, and i know now, maybe i choosed wrong. Maybe i should choose the science study program and not too high to choose the study program. But it just happened. Just wish me luck for the next announcement, and the next test i'll have. Remember what the people thought about my choice, some pros and cons. And he's the one that convinced me to choosed right but i didn't really care what he had said. I have really convinced with my own choice. It should be hear by me and why i couldn't choosed the same study program with my dad (which now i choosed that for the other way to join the University)
Everyones surely have their own purpose, and me, too. I hope, what have been wishing by my mom, dad, aunt, and my families become real. They can see me success, i hope it will be, and sure it'll be. I'm wishing and wishing, and praying. Now it's time to change my mind, this's not too late and before it's late, i'll do. Wish me :)

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